@Gabz that stuck feeling is awful. I really feel for you & recognise the feeling as well! I wish I’d done something like speak with a job coach (though I did date one for a while, does that count?) or other job mentor figure in my area. Would something like that, or other related meetups, help clarify anything for you? I have no knowledge of biotech (so these suggestions might be completely invalid) but sometimes just anything small to help wiggle oneself loose a bit can help.